I’m super excited to be traveling to Denver tomorrow to attend IndoExpo. I learned about the expo on Tuesday night and booked my flight yesterday. BUT this wasn’t some crazy impulse decision – this involved a sleepless night and a lot of tossing and turning. Because I knew I WANTED to go. I WANTED to be that spontaneous person I once was – before the MS and chronic pain started limiting what I could do. I WANTED to go and meet other people that believe in cannabis and it’s medical benefits, but the damn voice wanted to chime in – leading me to doubt whether I could actually do it.
The reality is – even with the improvements, even with cannabis helping with the pain, I STILL have MS and that means all the bullshit symptoms. The thought of traveling alone, to a place I have never been, where I don’t know anyone is incredibly scary. Add to that the fact that I don’t attend expos or concerts or anything with big crowds because they make all of those symptoms go into overdrive, and I end up a foggy headed, blurry and cloudy visioned babbling idiot. YET I couldn’t let it go – I felt I couldn’t miss this opportunity to break out of my comfort zone and give it a try. What’s the worst thing that could happen? I fall in the middle of the expo in front of a crowd of strangers? I’ve had worse happen and survived and the potential value of meeting so many amazing people involved in the industry far out weights that small fear. So I decided to say “fuck it!” and buy the damn ticket. I have an old high school friend that lives about 30 minutes from the city and she has offered me rides and a place to stay. So on top of the excitement of the trip and attending the expo, I am going to have a chance to reconnect with an old friend!
I booked my flight and today I am busy trying to get ready. I have to stock up on food, so I will be cooking up a shit ton over the next 24 hours…I wouldn’t want the boys to starve to death in my absence:) I also realized I should probably get business cards – I didn’t have much of a need for them over the past few years when the chronic pain limited what I could do. One of my new contacts, that has been helping me learn how to actually make some money blogging and writing suggested that I find someone to videotape me over the course of the weekend. Although I concurred it was a brilliant idea, the realization that I would have an actual cameraman following me around now has me more than a bit stressed out – I am not super comfortable with the thought of being recorded – but have decided to just continue saying fuck it – and push past the fears and concerns –
I need to keep this post brief because I have a lot to do but the gist of what I am saying here is…..
Thanks to cannabis I am actually DOING shit again!
I MIGHT actually be getting a life!:)
OH and just an fyi – STILL off the cigarettes! I honestly don’t know how many days it’s been 24 or 25? The fact that I don’t even know is HUGE! I still think about them constantly BUT I am beginning to believe that this is gonna stick because I honestly can’t image going out an buying a pack!:) If you had told me that in less than a month this topic would go on the backburner because of all the other exciting shit that is happening I never would have believed it – and yet I ALMOST just posted this piece without remembering to mention the whole “tobacco-free” thing! They have begun to be inconsequential to me and that rocks!!!:)
A few other things I wanted to share – I’ve begun writing a weekly piece for California Weed Blog – I’m going to be writing about my MMJ Adventures – check it out!
I also found another MSers with an awesome podcast called Truth Be Told. Check it out – Marie is awesome! She covers a different topic each month – I think THIS month is relationships? Cannabis is coming up – right in time for Canada’s legalization and I am super excited to be a guest!
If you want to follow me on my adventure – I will be posting on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/bbhwithms/ and twitter https://twitter.com/meglewellyn and HOPEFULLY there will be some video to share!:)
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