Last night I felt the most wonderfully annoying thing! As I climbed into bed and struggled to stake my claim in the ever-changing game of bed-real estate we play with the dogs each night I noticed SOMETHING. Or more accurately, I FELT something.
I FELT the pilled fabric of our “finely aged” sheets.
I FELT the grains of earth that the dogs have dragged in from the outside world.
I FELT the hair that they have shed night after night as they vie for the prime real estate.
I FELT JUST HOW DIRTY OUR BED IS!!!
To most, these things that I am describing must sound “unpleasant” at best but for me, living with a chronic condition that decided long ago that I would no longer be able to unscramble messages like “I FEEL dirt in the bed” actually FEELING these things is truly amazing!!!! Being able to FEEL and KNOW that I am FEELING it at the time that it is happening is a huge change.
When I first started using cannabis as my medicine 20 months ago, I was looking for relief from the chronic pain that had taken over my life. I wasn’t looking for miracles. I just wanted to find something that would help me live with the pain. Something that would make the process of living bearable.
I have absolutely no qualms in stating that it has definitely provided ALL of those things….and more!!
I have chronicled my daily #cannabispowered walks on Instagram and I am happy to announce that I am down 30 lbs! Mentally, I am in a better place than I have been in years. I am truly happy and I am finally able to FEEL that and appreciate all that it means. I mentioned in an earlier post that I thought that maybe cannabis was helping with my “public-pee problems” and as I continue to be able to “hold it in” for longer and longer periods of time, I’m willing to concede that it might be helping with that.
THIS new thing. This thing with my brain actually getting the CORRECT messages – that is HUGE! A few months ago, I wrote about terpenes and endocannabinoids. I explained that I imagined that they are tiny little bubble people that have entered my body to help. In my mind, they are going to the site of my “frayed electrical cord” and they are making bubble chains to allow for there to be successful communication within my body once again.
MY version may be oversimplified, but I believe in the power of visualizing getting better, of thinking about how your body is healing and given the fact that I am now fully AWARE of just how dirty my sleeping accommodations are, I have to say that I think cannabis is helping my body mend some of the broken parts.
Since the day I was diagnosed, I have had to wear both socks AND slippers to bed. Even in the midst of a heat wave, my feet have been outfitted for a cold winters night at all times. Because they ALWAYS FEEL cold. My mind is constantly telling me that they are cold. Bundling them up helps to quiet my mind, helps me remember that they aren’t actually COLD but really, they haven’t stopped feeling cold since I was diagnosed.
Shawn pointed out that I stopped wearing socks and slippers about three months ago. I hadn’t realized it, as it wasn’t something I did consciously. I just remember that I kept kicking them off in middle of the night and so at some point I stopped putting them on.
THAT simple thing is proof to me that this new medicine is doing far more than just helping me with the pain!
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